the whole mess...

sss

Thu, 07 Jun 2007 10:33:08 GMT

Fri, 26 Sep 2003 07:28:20 GMT

went to amoeba yesterday/tuesday and picked up a couple things replacments/let it be ben kweller/(only two good songsa on that) and the new rufus wainwright album. i didnt dig it too much when i first heard it but ive been listening to it for the past few days and now i cant stop i love it (though im gonna say that poses is still my fav of his.). Ive been so out of it lately i didnt even know it was out until i was at amoeba and glanced over from the yo la tengo records to see a whole stack of them. lovely cover too. im working on 2 hours sleep for the last two days Im all out of whack witht he world. found out that mayras kid is gonna be a girl....fucking cool. finally got the mod podge and have been using like a mad man. my pops picked up a old kodak camera in pretty perfect condition (might start taking pictures again if my bro doesnt take it!). anywho im sleepy

Tue, 09 Sep 2003 01:30:45 GMT

hey folks. well i started school last week...taking stats AGAIN!!. got my driving permit finally with the intent to actually get a licence. bought a car too. its big and shitty but it was cheap so im not feeling too bad. quit wroking for cingular and getting rehired on wed since i couldnt find anything better. went camping with stu and his bro but the weather was awful so we came back early. that is all for now.

sonic youth

Wed, 20 Aug 2003 07:10:52 GMT

went to go see sonic youth couple nights ago. they were incrdible.....two hours of completel perfection and genius. played two of my favorite songs: karen and teenage riot. lee was fucking incredible. this was the first time i had ever seen an actual full concert by them (i saw them at sunset junction last year). the opening band erase errata? was ok but the middle two bands were not that great..one sounded like henry rollins spoken word minus the spoken word part. but sonic youth were great great great and i had a wonderful time, but i think i got "rocked out" too much after an hour and 45 mins around1230 i was getting tired and just wanted them to stop p[laying good songs so i could go sit for a sec. well thats it for now.

since i havent in a while

Wed, 13 Aug 2003 07:42:12 GMT

blah blah blah job jobbity job job. quitting on the 24th since it doesnt mesh well with my school schedule. now im looking for something part time. i have a cold. my eyes are even more watery than usual what?.....ive relit my love for frank sinatra lately. its been what seems like years since ive had those cds playing. went to amoeba and bought some elvis costello, replacments, lee renaldos solo and finally bought the amelie dvd. when that movie was out in theaters i think i saw it about 4 or 5 times..great movie but i think i got burnt out on it finding it hard to sit through the whole thing...weird. this seems to be an eventful month. sonic youth on the 17 quit job on th 24, go camping on the 24 come back the 27(?). oh well see you kids later.

sonic youth , no more pics and more (in radom order of how they connect)

Thu, 24 Jul 2003 07:35:54 GMT

-Im gonna go see sonic youth next month yipeee!
-im not going to see rufus or aimee mann on thursday cuz my bros an asshole and wouldnt spot me for both tickets. kinda pissed but i can see dearest rufus some other time
-i just found out that my pictures arent being hosted any more... the diy.auction site is gone. thats why theres a gigantic empty space to the left of your screen.
-got "pizzzzzaid" today. though im pretty sure that more than a third of that will be gone by saturday. ive decided to hit everyone back that i used to sponge off of. which when i look at it now is just one really big bar bill.
-reading hocus pocus by vonnegut at work. theres at least 2 hours between customers so im pretty much done with it.
-work is ok just extremely boring and hectic as hell when i have customers (when i have one customer it seems that anohter one comes at the same time.)
-i saw "charming girl" again we hung out and made out. she got really pissed off when she asked me "where is this going?" (in the relationship sense) and i answered honestly "i dont know where do you want it to go" cuz really i dont know. not seeing her for a couple weeks i noticed i really didnt miss her, but not seeing the other girl for a couple of days did matter.

later.

i have a job now

Wed, 09 Jul 2003 07:19:05 GMT

so i finally got a job. yes me the constant slacker leech on society has once again gotten a job but this time i actually plan to stay with it for a while and get paid adequately. im selling cell phones for cingular....hahaha..yeah me selling cell phones...very obvious joke there. its not that bad. but i have to cut my hair and wear "proper business" attire (another obvious joke there). but its like 1200 a month which isnt bad. anywho ill probably bitch about the job on here so be ready for that ..expect even less updates...i get off late. bye.

there was an obvious joke there about getting off late but i wont go there.
by the way i wonder who reads this?

Tue, 24 Jun 2003 05:29:40 GMT

its been awhile since my last update....nothin much has really been going on so theres no need. i turned 22 on saturday. i got some pretty nifty presents so that was nice. the "charming" girl got me a potted plant.....yeah i know. but its the thought that counts. i get the weird feeling that the plant is a way for her to test me. if the plant dies then i would make a bad boyfriend because i cant even take care of a plant; something like that. oh well fug it.

long time

Tue, 27 May 2003 20:56:24 GMT

my moms opertaion went well. she got 3 weeks of recovery/bed rest until shes back to her normal self. my bro moved back into the house that same week, and that girl...ahh that girl damn her. my bro moved into the den/computer roon so i dont have a computer anymore...isnt that nice. yes. so im pretty much stuck with using stuarts comp or using the schools comp which are both complete pains in the ass. hope everyone is doing fine and all that other goodness. sorry to those people whom i should say sorry to. later.

haha. i went to see phantom of paradise this weekend with special guest paul williams it was incredible. the egyptian is gonna do a ray harryhausen retrospective in the next few weeks. hehe....might go see my morning jacket this week.

Fri, 16 May 2003 08:27:37 GMT

so my mom is having a pretty serious operation in about 10 hours. im somewhat nervous. if i beleived in god i could think "well whatever happens is gods will" but dont so i even lack that sad shitty desprate comfort if anything goes wrong; which it wont because my moms a trooper ahhh....yeah. feelin like straight bozo and i cant even sleep it off.

oh dork

Sun, 13 Apr 2003 02:41:06 GMT

i had a dream about finding a box full of seasme street and beatles read-a-long 45s...for some strange reason i was the only male in my dream...when i woke up i was very very disappointed. it was better than a sex dream.

Wed, 02 Apr 2003 08:09:50 GMT

i havent updated in a while or even been online. been busy.......in the words of ryan adams liner notes "damn girl". nite folks

Sun, 09 Mar 2003 09:47:32 GMT

i was reading an entry and noticed the question "14. You want played at your funeral"...and i remembered that i used to have a list of such songs that i kept with all my precious belongings when i was a sad little teenage fuckface...anywho i thought i might revise that list on sunday...ill post my results.
on a much lighter and not as desprately funny note i went to ikea today and got some furniture for my room ikea: nice little table for my typewriter, cabinet thingy for my bathroom and some cute curtains. still havent chosen what color im gonna paint two of the walls. im thinking a nice soft mellow yellow or redish color. nite folks

Thu, 06 Mar 2003 08:36:11 GMT

last nite was very intresting. sometimes i zone out and say shit that i cant recall. i didnt mean to cross him like that but i did....i was in a completely different world. same thing went on tonite had a conversation with stu and his bro about something 5 minutes later i had no idea what we were talking about or how to answer his question. im going crazy.

i was listening to the dearly departed ben folds five. i havent listend to "whatever...amen" in a good year and a half, but last nite the words to "evaporated" hit me like a ton of brick... its a great song.

What I've kept with me
And what I've thrown away
And where the hell I've ended up
On this glary random day
Were the things I really cared about
Just left along the way
For being too pent up and proud
Woke up way too late
Feeling hung over and old
And the sun was shining bright
And I walked barefoot down the road
Started thing about my old man
It seems that all men
Wanna get into a car and go anywhere

Here I stand,
Sad & free
I can't cry and I can't see
What I've done
God...What have I done
So don't you know I'm numb, man
No I don't feel a thing at all
Cause its all smiles & business these days
and I am indifferent to the loss
I've faith that there's a soul
whose leading me around
I wonder if she knows
Which way is down...
I poured my heart out
I poured my heart out
it evaporated...see?

Blind man on a canyon's edge
of a Panoramic scene
Or maybe I'm a kite
That's flying high & random
Dangling a string
Or slumped over in a vacant room
Head on a stranger's knee
I'm sure back home
They think I've lost my mind.

the station.

Fri, 21 Feb 2003 08:53:31 GMT

went to the first braodcasting/radio station meeting today and was completely shocked by all the new rules and guidelines. formal show and daily logs (what the fuck....i did the show logs in an informal manner just for my own pleasure but now in a formal manner..what the fuck?). i can only have one absence...DUDE!. mandatory recording of all the shows i do....shit (i also did this for my own records but now i actually have to turn them in).....and i have to do psa's and play commercials for other djs...fuck man when did the down-on-its-luck lackluster kvcm station become a pseudo-pro station when the equipment is barely working and at least 15 years old. ecchh....i really dont want to handle with all the paper work etc. but the few hours i spend in the booth are really really fun for me. on a side note...im gonna be on from 3-4 now so i might actually get some listeners and callers.

still falling for that girl even though ...it seems that as long as i am jose with my "joseness" (all my little vices and shortcomings) she will never go for me.....

"the basic formula of all sin is: frustrated or neglected love." - franz werfel

i got a kick out of this.

Fri, 21 Feb 2003 07:27:40 GMT

tony "sweetcakes" sent me this...its terry jones of monty python on prime minister tony blair....pretty funny
http://www.observer.co.uk/iraq/story/0,12239,796739,00.html

very strange weekend.

Mon, 17 Feb 2003 23:29:01 GMT

feeling a bit odd on friday for whatever reasons (st. valentines day etc.) and got into a very heated discussion with alex about "what do we do?" and other weird questions that we never agree on. I think he doesnt appreciate my negativity/realism/pessimism. i went on to say how i was proud to be a degenerate (partial humor/partial truth) and i think it pissed him off. good pizza though.
saturady was a very lazy day for me...ididnt even get up until 1pm or so. went to the hollywood anti-war rally to not really participate but to collect data...or something like that. Of course im anit-war/pro-peace but im not into the whole mass chanting/bougie bleeding heart then i can go home and drive me suv/black mask wearing anarchy fuck face shit. why is it that the "anarchists" (actually i should say the young anarchists ...who choose to call themselves the black block) wear bandannas over thier mouths....anywho. after that whole e.s.m.p. i went down to see my bros show. as with all my bros shows it was incredibly awkward for me. i go down there and see all the same cats i see whenever my bro plays.....i usually sit in the back drink and just wait till my bro comes on; sparking very short conversations. out of no where i see fucking Aaron who i havent seen in 3 years, this dude used to play in my band and we used to get high together, so this is way back. as always he was a sneaky dick, doing that whole "im going to be really nice to you but im not really paying attention when you talk" schtick. so i go back sit down toss down another few beers and an hour later out of the darkness (literally) in walks marta. for awhile i just stared at her wondering if it was the beer but as soon as she saw me she screamed out my name and came running at me. I hadnt seen her in about three years so i gave her a big hug and i could tell she was getting a little moist under the eyes. of all the places it was very strange to see her at my bros show. we talked the whole nite and both of us witnessed probably the worst show my bros played (worse than the whole car-guitar-feedback thing). i was so happy to see her again....it has been almost 4 years since i saw her last and we were such good friends for awhile. i was glad to hear that both her and steph (my bros ex) were doing well. .....ill finish this later.

Fri, 14 Feb 2003 08:40:15 GMT

theres ants coming off the ceiling in a nice single file line crossing my room going onto my carpet and into a hole in my window. why? cuz their bastards and think that this bothers me....hahaha i wont give them the satisfaction. really fucking annoying. of all the insects they could be im glad its ants......they seem to be the most harmless insects of all.
school started on monday...classes look good. hopefully i will be getting a job at the library. blah. good nite.

Sun, 09 Feb 2003 09:49:10 GMT

went to amoeba on firday and picked up two cds
-the new folk implosion - the new folk implosion
-buring brides - fall of the plastic empire
suprisingly i only paid ten for both...i was willing to pay for the new folk imp cd at full price but i found a promotional copy for 5 . the folk implosion cd is pretty good...im a fan of anything lou barlow puts out be it loobiecore, sentridoh, sebadoh, lou and friends etc.....its good.
the burning brides album is pretty good too....loud/ quick/ simple good/good/great.....if people would stop listening to sappy pappy/emotional masterbator music it would be a much better world.....i will no doubt play this album alot on my show, i wish i knew some more bands like this....blah.....sleepy.

the end of an era..........................................or boredom + time

Fri, 07 Feb 2003 07:48:56 GMT

many many years ago there was a young kid with a dream, that dream being to buy a guitar, learn how to play it properly and start a rock band. this young buck accomplished 2 of the three......he never learned how to play correctly or properly and only used power chords and what he called "what-ever-note-this-is" (but that goes into a whole thing about commitment and im not going to get into that). this young buck bought a dark blue dinky reverse jackson electric guitar and a shitty amp...and soon enough started a band that hardly practised, had one gig , changed its name 7 times and played what the members like to call "punk-funk-nerd rock". As the years past (about 6) the guitar and the young man seemed to get more and more seperated both spiritually and physically. and now in the foul year of our lord 2003 he has decided to give away his electric guitar............................................hehe

so folks it truly is an end of an era ...ive decided to give my electric guitar to my bro (for whatever artistic or musical debauchary he wants to use it for). me and that guitar have been together for about 6 years and it actually pains me to give it away; but I honestly dont use it anymore and its become a bit of an eyesore and waste of space. i was able to buy that guitar with the money i got from working at the pound. so in a way that guitar was paid in full with the shit, piss, blood and bodies of all those cats and dogs i had to feed, clean up after, and toss into a industrial freezer. coming home with the smell of dog shit and kitty sand stuck in my nose the only truejustice and peace i had was coming home and rocking out on the guitar. and then the band...ahhhh "the band"...how i miss those times in my garage playing my guitar out of time and not in sync with my musical brethren. I even serenaded a couple of young ladys with that silly guitar; cooing sweet mtx-inspired punk rock tunes to thier laugh. in the past 2 years i have rarely picked it up and its not like im throwing it away. i still have the acoustic that i saved from an abuse heavy home for five buck eventhough my friend paid 300 for it...hahaha i still cant believe he let me have it for five bucks....its been about 4 years that ive had that crippled sweetie. so blue jackson electric guitar i salute you and wish you well on your journey with my brother....we had some good times and some bad times. remeber that time i learned to play "gratitude" on you or that time i threw up on you....oh yes.....those were the days...so long.

on a much lighter note
ive found a love for sewing. its very calming and helps me work on my shaky hands.

"riiiiichie"

Fri, 31 Jan 2003 08:42:11 GMT

- I'd like to be part of something honest. everything i think id like to be involved in seems so dishonest, fake.......arrrgh...i want realness(?) spit in your face honesty and a dedication to being truthful about you and the things around you. how it all is related even if its not something important ........its the realization and the ability to grasp ones reality and say "thats bullshit" to the absurd things that make up our world. seing the grey within the black and white and telling yourself that you actually see it........i dont know what im saying ...just a little frustrated with life right now.......blah folks blah

lately ive been coming up to my dudes, grabbing their necks and saying "dont look at me little puppet! dont look at me!" . the original source of this quote is a pretty graphic scenes but somehow extremely funny when i do it. all my internet spics probably know what movie im talking about. i also like to grab them and say "dont struggle puto! itll only hurt more."...ha!!! i think part of the reason its so funny is because its me doing this shit in an extremely exaggerated "spanglish-cholo-whatever" voice, me the one thats supposedly the most "white washed" of the whole bunch....which im not going to get into that........ its a bunch of bullshit. anyhow. goodnite folks

no mames guay!

hola

Mon, 27 Jan 2003 10:05:10 GMT

finished reading mother night and started on cats cradle....lately ive been reading lots of vonnegut for some reason. mothers night was great and i saw the film a couple days ago too. as always the book was better but i enjoyed nick noltes portrayal of howard campbell. cats cradle seems like a pretty good read. i started reading it on my way back from hollywood sat.....bought myself a new "man purse""man bag" (as so many people i know have put it) at the surplus store and bought some books on wwII.
saw the game today with about a dozen ol' school veterano/ex-con/50-60 years old and their 30yr old sons (courtesy of stuart). very intresting.....lots of budweiser mgd and hennesy flowin'....lots of moustaches with the odd white hair. which kinda describes me in the whole situation. i actually had fun though they were all pretty cool and offered me drugs (which i always take as a sign of peace). as always i didnt partake in the pot smoking or coke sniffin so i had to watch as the raiders choked on a big fat strong defensive/running play penis. all the folks in the place were going for oakland (true stereotype: all mexicans love the raiders) so there was some very loud screams of disappointment/drunkeness. ate some really good mashed potatoes too.
- made the designs for my 3 forth coming tats.
- met a lovely goth gurl who didnt even knew i existed
well folks thats about it. if you were reading this youd be here right now......dont shot the warthog..

i know im forgetting something.

the burden of not sleeping

Sat, 18 Jan 2003 08:01:41 GMT

so i had too much coffee last nite and i was up until 6am. in the wee hours of the morning i was screing around with adobe and decided to make a collage of people whos work i admire . collage . if youd like to know who all these cats are check this out whos who. thats how incredibly bored i was last nite at about 4 am. many were left out for whatever reason (no pic, being lazy etc.) .
god i feel like shit right now. ahhhhh......saturday how i wait for your sunshine upon my lazy skull. bye.

haircut, johnny depp, my mom, a justin timberlake doll, and ted nugent....(not in order of importance)

Fri, 17 Jan 2003 08:38:00 GMT

hello hello. just got a few things to put down on here tonite before i hit the sack. in no significant order (but it most likely will offend someone)

1. i got my haircut yesterday. once again the barber cut it well but not really how i wanted it. the "tmbg-linnel" should be in full by summer.
2. "hey johnny depp lets dip you in white makeup and put scissors on your hands" "sure lets do it". "how about we put a silly hat on you and you can act like buster keaton" "I'm game" "how about we dress up you up as a woman and pass you off as a cuban crossdresser" "sounds good" "how about we dress you up as a fuckin pirate and film a movie based on a disney ride" "hmmmmm.......sure" http://www.latinoreview.com/films_2003/disneypictures/potc/potc-1_jack.html . mr. johnny depp i admire you range........down on jump street ...I SAID JUMP...down on jump street.
3. i just recently found out ( last person to know in my whole entire family even people in el salvador knew before me) that my mom has a mass in her uterus, so their gonna take it out.....yeah the whole thing......fucked up....i dont wanna worry but I am shitting bricks.
4. i went to a couple thrift stores yesterday and today. got some cool shirts and a couple records (#5) but today i found the wackiest shit. a justin timberlake doll/puppet/marienette(sp). it was only a dollar so i had to buy it. ive already ripped off the head so know i have a very scary looking head looking at me while i type. ive put a POTA head on the body and gonna make a weird sculpture with it....."jesus/monkey savior". if anyone wants pictures of justin timberlakes head in comprimising situations please feel free to ask.
5. as i was saying ive bought a few records lately. me and my bro have been in 80s rock mood lately so i picked up van halen-1984, bon jovi -slippery when wet and some of that sweet blue eyed soul hall and oates shit. i also picked up neil youngs - live rust and ted nuggents cat scratch fever (which is loud and annoying therefore great)....considering that i picked up all these records for a buck a piece there all in really good condition (minor scratches) and play damn well.

thats it goodnite.

Mon, 13 Jan 2003 19:44:06 GMT

eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.... i passed all my classes last semester hehehehehe.....except for stats. but now i dont have to tkae nay more fuckin science courses..hahaha. im so excited partially beacuse its so cold in my room that im shaking and partailly since i thought i was gonna fail at least 2. so stats once again next semester. and sfstate in septemeber hahaha. gotta go.